I want to preface this by saying I never thought I'd be writing something like this. Ketamine wasn't even on my radar when I was first diagnosed 10 years ago— it was the thing people called a party drug or a horse tranquilizer, and those were the only two contexts I'd ever heard it mentioned in. It is not where I expected my treatment journey to end up. But here I am. And if you're reading this because you're in a similar place — you've tried the medications, you've done the